Could life get any worse? :(

Hello world! I have been in a horrible mood all day, without the fact of my skype dates with my family and one of my best friends. 

My boyfriend of a year and 5, almost 6months, has bad heart problems. I dont know what it is, and i am soo worried about and for him. I wish there was a way how i can get a sign or anything about whether he would be ok or not. UGH i need a dream, a good dream, from God to let me know he will be ok. 

Good night my darlings

Steps to Become a Better Me

Good evening everyone! :) I am pleased to report that I did 3 different kinds of work outs today! :)

• Biked 3miles

• Swam 3 laps

• Started my first day of my weekly running schedule

It was amazing how my body is adjusting/working with my new lifestyle. Like I had said in my previous blog, that my goal is to lose at least 50lbs. I feel like if I do this every other day, I will definitely see improvement! I am so excited to see the end result! :D :D :D The hardest part will be to not get back the way I am (200lbs) now and keep all the pounds I am working off, to stay off....for good! 

I am so excited to get a high self esteem and get more confident in myself. Below is some pictures of my current weight...(I know, I'm fat, but I'm working on it! :) ) and some pictures of my work out progress today! :) 



DAY 1: 

   

one word....skype!

I absolutely love whoever is the inventor of skype, i want to kiss and hug because if it wasnt for skype, i wouldnt have been able to have a skype date with my amazing best friend Calli. She is so sweet, and so loving. I love and miss her so much! :) 

 

shes on right, im on left

2nd topic of my life. What the hell is wrong with the job industry anymore? It seems like i have applied everywhere in this stupid state and noone will hire me due to "we dont have any more spots left" blah blah blah...im so tired of just sitting on my ass all the time and being bored and not being able to put bacon on the table so i can do my side of the bills of me and my bf's apartment. i love him dearly, but there comes a time where he wont be able to put up with neither of us having a job is going to work. meh..i hate my life. 

on that note, im going to bed, im getting stressed out...good night yall! 

Introduction/Motivation needed

Hey yall! If you recognize my name, I am the founder of "Brianna Marie Photography". You may have read some of my stuff from my photography blog. I've always wanted to set up a blog of my own that I can share all of my thoughts, and rambling, and people actually enjoy reading it :)

I am obviously Brianna Lenker. Most people call me Bree. I am 21 years old. My birthday is August 8, 1991 (yes, i just had a birthday) I moved from Kansas to Georgia to be with my amazing boyfriend Brett. He is amazing and i love him ever so much :)  I dont know what i would do if i didnt have him in my life. he is my rock, my other half, my best friend. He is an iraqi veteran. he deployed in march 2010-march 2011<3
We met on through facebook in february of 2011, a month before he was suppose to come home, and we wanted to be friends with benefits, but we ended up falling in love with each other and have been together since march 10, 2011.

me and brett july 2012

Right now I am working on losing about 50lbs...if not more. I found a pin on pinterest where I can start a running schedule to get me to run nonstop for 15-20minutes....I want that sooo bad! :)



well, im off to bed. good night to those of you who do read this:)